It's the time of the semester again where every student will have their own serious moment... Everyone holding files walking towards the study room or library look... Last year during my sem2, I got the CGPA of 2.7... It's low but sem 1 I only got 0.7.... increasement of the 2 points is enough to make everyone in my group to drop their spec with the stunned look... hahaha.... LOVE THAT LOOK !!! Hope to see that look again... can't wait.... 

Will be under training in Gamuda Engineering Bhd from 18 Feb till 26 April... 8am till 5pm for weekdays and 8am till 1pm for Saturday.... looking forward for the experience... Plenty of report to be prepare throughout this amazing experience.... 

Will not be updating much for blogspot neither here... Need to study like crazy again... Quite stressful but everyone are going through the same thing as I am... So, NO COMPLAINT !!! Those who bump into me, please don't be afraid of my panda look.... Observe carefully and you might find me cute... hahaha.... 

When we fall in love,
we never hoped to cry,
we never wanted to get hurt,
we give more than what we need,
we somehow get equal benefit
but more of us end up in tears. 

If you love somebody,
don’t give up so easily,
stay strong and carry on to love him or her
cause you would never know where fate brings you to.
You were the first one to ever steal my heart for so long,
never would I want to part cause you are having my heart.
If I could give you one thing in life,
I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes
only then would you realize how important are you to me. 

Memories is treasured on one can steal,
parting is headache,
no one can heal,
some will forget you when you are gone,
but I’ll remember you no matter how long. 

You do not know the effect you have on me
because every time I see you my heart begins to smile.
People say you only could fall in love once,
but when I heard your voice I fall in love all over again.
There are times when I fall in love with someone new,
but always seems to find myself back in love with you. 

Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was choice,
but falling in love with you was totally out of my control.
Always draw a circle around the ones you love,
never draw a heart because hearts can be broken,
but circles are never ending. 

Some of the most beautiful things in the world,
can’t be seen by the eye,
but only felt by the heart.
The best way to love is to be love like you have never been hurt.
The hardest thing you’ll ever do is watch the one you love, love someone else.
You are still the one that I wanted to talk to when I feel low,
since the day we parted.
I wished I could tell you,
you will always be on my mind and the one and only in my heart. 

When the night comes, look at the sky,
if you see a falling star,
don’t ask wonder why, just make a wish.
Trust me.
It will come true because I did it and I found you. 

Though we’re far apart,
I know exactly where you are.
Every second every moment,
right there in my heart. 

If you love someone, let them go.
Never take for granted every person close to your heart.
Cause you might wake up one day
and realize that you have lost a diamond
and because you were busy collecting stones. 

When the time comes for you to give your heart to someone,
make sure that you select someone who will never hurt your heart
because broken hearts have got no spare parts. 

My love is ever in your service.

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I think I entered the course I'm only 50% good at... No wonder my result slightly above in the middle... Counselling and Phychology is always my first choice but it's not easy to find a job in that industry... That's why I took engineering... Somehow, I hope everything would work out good... God bless..

Before marriage.
Darling here.. darling there...
After marriage.
Baling here... baling there..

Before marriage.
I die for you. . .
After marriage.
"You die, up to you.
"Lagi lama married.
You die I help you!

Before marriage.
You go anywhere. . I follow you.
After marriage. .
You go anywhere. . up to you .
Lagi lama married.
You go anywhere better get lost!!

Before wedding
you are my heart, you are my love"
After wedding
"you get on my nerves. "

Before wedding
"you are sweet and kind just like Cinderella"
After wedding
"you are worse than godzila"

Before wedding
Roses are red, violets are blue. Like it or not, I'm stuck with you
After wedding
Roses are dead, I am blue. You get on my head, I will sue you

Before wedding
Every makan he brings you to Shangri-La
After wedding
You want to go, he says you wait-la

Before weddingS
looks like Anita Sarawak
After wedding
Don't know whether katak or biawak

As what I used to say, PEOPLE CHANGE AS TIME GOES BY.....

I got myself a new blog and definitely will be updating that but that doesn't mean i'll stop updating the one here in livejournal.. I'll still update it but it wouldn't be as detail as the new one... Any problems that appeared, do inform me ya... To those that wanted to know the new blog page, please do not hesitate to ask me BUT i hope no one will get offended to what they are about to read in the new blog...

Sincerely,
Pui San

Last Thursday, i accompanied a friend of mine which had a broken heart.. His gf broke up with him during the exam week just like what happened to me during sem 2.. This friend of mine knew what was really happening between me and him and sometimes he choose to be between both of us not helping anyone but in fact, he's helping the wrong one knowing i'm the right one.. When i'm walking with him to Sungai Wang from Times Square, he asked me a question about him asking me out.. Haha.. yeap, i answered him and he was amazed...

Anyway, during my weakness moment when you know who is the right one but yet you choose not to be supportive for me ONLY, u made me felt disappointed but no matter what, you are still my friend... A sorry maybe too late now but i don't care anymore because i found someone else which i can truely trust and i knew they will support me no matter what i do... What happened before doesn't important anymore to me... Even though you were not there when i needed you, i will always be there when you need me.. Now you feel what i felt... If no one were there for me, i used 3 months to forget what the jerk cause me and live a better life... I think you could have a happy life within 3 months oh... U r someone much more stronger than me... I believe u can do so... Besides, you don't need to face her like i do everyday !!!! friends forever !!! Conclusion is there are so many trees in this world... hahaha... Don't let go of the whole forest for one tiny useless tree...

A few days ago, a close friend of mine stood up for me and scolded him... She did those things all because she wanted to and i didn't know anything about it... I'm glad that she helped me because NO ONE helped me after they knowing the pain i'm suffering but try asking me before you do those things ya.. U know some people la... enjoy blaming people what... Maybe my secondary school friends know who and how i am and seeing me upset is like once in a bluemoon... Will there a chance seeing Pui San not smiling everday ? I don't think so... If i'm really sad, that must be something big... Anyway, i learned a lot from everyone i know in college... Somehow, i'm still me but somehow different...

Once upon a time, someone told me that *EAST MALAYSIA PEOPLE ARE REALLY DIFFERENT THAN KL PEOPLE*... trust me... the person who said those words is so stupid... Yes.. i'm a very straight forward person.. I won't turn a big round and say someone is SLOW instead of STUPID... Why ? If those people from East Malaysia doesn't tell us that they are from East Malaysia, who would ever know ? East Malaysia have 3 eyes ? East Malaysia got 3 legs ? Besides that, people from East Malaysia think that KL people are very cunning... Yes... i admit but not everyone... certainly not me... Thank you to a friend of mine from East Malaysia saying that i'm different from other KL people that he met... Just because i'm from KL but that doesn't gives you the reason to hurt my feelings.. Everyone in this world have feelings... Don't think you are so smart that you can start blaming people for your mistakes and not admitting it... At first, i'm so scare of people from East Malaysia because of U but then, i realise ONLY U is the different one because Kam, Hao Zheng, Angela, Zhening, Jess, Yen Sen, Lawrence, Andrew and many many more is just like any other people in the world... U R SO SO SO SPECIAL... PROUD OF IT JERK !!! *Don't tell people you are from East Malaysia.. you are just humiliating us... * those words were told by someone from Sibu to you...

I demand friends which can compromise me and like me for who i am.. I don't care how compatible we are but what is important is that he/she can trust me and vice versa... I hate those type of person who is so sadistic and couldn't care less about what is happening to his friends and show up as an angel when someone realize it's wrong and asked for his help.... Thank you all friends and be careful....

Here, deep in my heart i really wanted to thank everyone i get to know in college... Some of them taught me a lot about life shouldn't be so *cincai*... we must choose what is best of ourselves and don't regret for what i have done... There are consequences in everything you do in life... One must be responsible for what they did and never to doubt the decision our heart made...

Who really understand love ? hmmm.......

As most of my friends info, something sad involved love happened to me a few months ago... So, i don't really know what is love to some people because everyone have their definition of love and i have mine... But what i'm going to share here is all about my friend's love life.... hahahahahahaha..... I have my own love life but not going to post it here because i'll keep it to myself only... hahahaha........

A friend of mine studying in ATC Kemayan situated in Petaling Street... It's well known for law and a lot of people from all over the world goes to the college to continue their ambition as a lawyer.. Ms.S is also one of the student there.. She's having an international relationship now with a Nigerian guy which i believe to be a very good guy... She's happy therefore i'm happy for her too.... So far so good la for her..

Another friend of mine, he's already with the girl for 6 years.... They know each other since primary school but they started having relationship starting Form 2 till today i heard from him that they broke up.... To me, i don't think it's not anyone's fault... When someone is far from each other, it's a test given by God to test human's patient and the stability of your love.... Most of them broke up because they usually feel lonely without their companion whom is someone they trust the most... When that happens, it's human nature in search of someone new which can always be there for them to care for him.... When that time comes, the girl/guy can blame their companion because IT'S HUMAN NATURE ! Therefore, don't be sad.... Maybe because i could still remember the feel of breaking up, no matter who say any good word it can never goes into the brain or cure anything... Only ourselves can help ourselves.... anyway, take care... choose the right friend because i had and i'm currently having a lot of fun now... hahahahahahaha.......

Another friend of mine... Having relationship with an incredible woman.... why i say that she's incredible ? wow.... Fred is so so so crazy of her till he will give up anything just for her... argue with his family.... his friends.... give up his money.... his everything..... When he's down because the girl threaten him to break up, his mood gone moody and his parents look for the girl to discuss with her... i'm not sure what they talk about but it's wrong.... Fred's family is a very very very rich family.... He drives a gold BMW limited edition to college during the day and he drive Evolution 7 during the night... He's owns a platinum credit card.... He's quite ok looking.... His attitude surely is good as i know till he met this girl.... He deserve someone better.... Simply go out and find a girl also better than her... She should learn how to behave herself.... She should be thankful but maybe attitude like her is what makes him so crazy for her while girlz like us which always treat our bf like gold are nothing to the guy.... We are like shit to them... They treat us as if we doesn't have any feelings.... Therefore, lesson learned !

3 friend above... Sometimes it's not my right to talk anything about other people's relationship because i'm a failure once... From that failure, i learned and now my life is so much wonderful with......... hehe..... *private*  I understand a lot already now and i just hope for a better tomorrow....

Anyway, i'm not feeling well... therefore, it's time to sleep...... nite people !!

It's Mother's Day today... My family doesn't have the tradition to celebrate it because everyday seems to be the same for us... Although it's a special day today for all mothers in the world but to me, everyday seems to be family day... I just want to go home and have peaceful time with family even if we don't talk much..  I know that when bro left, something in my family followed together with him... Things just changed after he's gone.. When i'm down, losing my appetite and my desire to sleep, dad said,

We can choose friends... materials... career.... paths.....but we can never choose family...

His wise words made me think a lot of things which made me realise many things in life... Thanks Dad for the wonderful words because i chosen the path... Even without me expressing how i feel deep inside, only both of u will know how pain i am.. Anyway, it's over now.. Besides dad there were some older friends which seen the world a few steps earlier than me... There are some wise words too from Mr.C... Thank you for your advice..

3A - attention, appreciation, appearance... with 3A, u can success in many aspect in life..

Don't make someone your everything,
Once u lost the someone, u lost everything

Change what is unaaceptable, accept what is unchangeable

Facts is always unreversable, thinking is always changeable

I realise i can crap a lot of things just by looking at something simple and just write out my opinions.. Today while having dinner, there's another family beside our table... The family members are 4 people ( dad, mum, son, daughter) where the parents sit near to the younger daughter and the son just sit somewhere a bit more far compared to the daughter.. After finishing his food, he couldn't sit quietly and he just walk and run around by himself.. His parents only care about the daughter because it's clear that the parents only look at the daughter... When i saw the condition of the family, it reminds me of how many family were last time.. Bro is older than me 6 years.. Therefore, mum and dad pay more attention to me but without doubt, mum love bro more and dad love me more.. So, it's fair ! hahaha.... It's going to be wonderful to have bro around right now with me to celebrate all the family activities..

To love a MAN, understand him is more important than u love him too much ; To love a WOMAN, 'love' is the most important thing!!!

Anyway, it's a day where mother is in the first place but a friend of mine is so funny... He went for movie with his bro.... can u imagine 2 guyz walking around celebrating Mother's Day without their mother ? hahaha.... Just some jokes.... but their mother is not in KL... Therefore left only both of them to celebrate having their mother in their heart... 2 loving brothers ! I'm sure your mum will know that... Hope everyone had a great day with their mother and appreciate what all mother suffered just to bring us to this world...

I got a cake for mum but mum cut it already before i can lay my hand on the camera to take a pic !! aiyoh.... nevermind la... Father Day is around the corner too but what should i get for dad !? omg...

Friendship for 2 years... hmmm... Yung Mun and me know each other on this day 2 years ago in VI Carnival Day... Hmmm, thanks to Ze Mei... I know someone who live 10 minutes away from my grandma house... Before that, we already seen each other before in the history class which our main purpose is to GET the notes !! Well, i notices him since the first time i seen him... weird feelings again... hahaha.... Although we have seen each other before but that doesn't mean we are friend... Besides, guyz from VI... they are just arrogant guyz that walk with one hand in the pocket especially PREFECTS and Yung Mun is a prefect... hahahaha !!! heard that prefects from VI are big bullies and i mean BIG !

Well, it turns out that he's a very nice guy that will only pretend cool when there are other younger Victorians around... Yung and me started talking ever since... Then, slowly slowly we became good friends and Michael is so interested in knowing both of us till one day he just start talking to us for no reason !!! hahahaha.... Anyway, luckily Michael is a good guy... hehe... =P  Then, Yung, Mike and me just started to see each other every Friday in the history class... Yung usually walk into the class 5-10 minutes later because the style of the teacher teachings is he'll walk into the class with his *style*, drawing mind map on the white board and giving out notes... So, Yung is smart... hahaha... Michael and me usually arrived early and we just wait for the class to start by disturbing anyone we know that we can see at that time... *giggles*

Cut the nonsense... It's about Yung and me.. NOT U MICHAEL !! *pats*  Then, every Friday Yung and me will walk home after class... Both of us just talk talk talk non stop and there won't be any quiet moments between us... When SPM is around the corner, Yung is also the one who is there to taught Add Maths and Physics and Chemistry... My sifu lar... hehe.... Sorry that i drop my Add Maths... I just couldn't take the pressure anymore....

Ok... after SPM, i don't go to my grandma house anymore and he started studying in Sunway College around March while i'm working somewhere in Sungai Wang... Well, i can say that we are having our long distance friendship that time... Although we don't see each other, both of us just got the type of connection.... A feeling that i doesn't know how to describe...

When come to think of it, i got a weird feeling as if we have been far apart... Then, i ask him and i try to find out what is all my weird feelings is all about... Oh.... He got a girlfriend ! No wonder i felt so weird... Then as times goes by, there were no more connections between us till we don't even sms or chat anymore... We even talk lesser and we lost the topics to talk about... Hmmm.... Not that i'm angry or what but........... not sure what is the type of feeling again.... My 6th sense is so strong that he got girlfriend also i know.... hahaha.... but......... now only left MIchael and me... Although Michael and me are from the same lousy college but we don't meet as often as i hope it will... hahaha....

Anyway, Happy 2 years of Friendship.... There is no one like u....

p.s : Michael.. don't u dare do the same thing like Yung did...  ignoring me because of your girlfriend... wuwuwu.....

Dear friends.....

I felt like writing things in my blog seems to be disturbing to certain people... Therefore, i made decision to stop writing it but blogging is one of my favourite past time when i online.. Can anyone give me comments whether should i continue or not ?

Thank for your answer =)